Dancing with My Demon | somewheretomorrow's Blog

I am sitting here and writing in agony. Demon, a minor demon, is pinning me and fucking with my head...

"You have taken almost everything from me. Now I am begging you. Please TAKE MY LIFE BEFORE I LOSE MY SOUL. This is my LAST WISH!!"
My mood: pretty cold

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Posted on 06:13AM on Nov 15th, 2010
Right. They and friends like you are the reason why I am still breathing. I have to make a choice between life and death. Sigh. I wish there were more options to choose. Love you always! HUGS.
Posted on 09:32PM on Nov 15th, 2010
Yeah, what Beth said. As hard as it is and as easy as death seems, we all have to say don't give in just yet.
Posted on 09:48PM on Nov 15th, 2010
Posted on 02:53PM on Nov 17th, 2010
Please dont give up your a very special person. Life is beautiful you just gotta see the bright side of things.

i feel like giving up2 sometimes but i dont want my family to go thru that pain. I only have 3 friends and i hardly ever see them it seems to me they dont seem to care cos they dont make the effert to hang out and do stuff and i do im just sick of it or sick of them.

But life counts my dear, whatever your going through it should make you stronger and wiser, your beautiful and im glad your my friend.....*hugs*
Posted on 09:38AM on Nov 18th, 2010
Thanks for encouraging me! I am also glad you are my friend. *Hugs*

I have a few friends in real life as well. And they don't really care about me. I think they are scared of me or something because of my mental illness. It is sad...
Posted on 09:41AM on Nov 18th, 2010
Well we are not going anywhere :) *hugs* Remember if you ever need anything let me know
Posted on 05:32AM on Nov 19th, 2010
Thanks! *Hug back*
Posted on 05:36AM on Nov 19th, 2010
same with me hun if you ever want to talk about anything anytime i am always here. i hate to see a sweetheart like you be so sad *hugs*
Posted on 10:59PM on Nov 19th, 2010
Posted on 02:55PM on Nov 23rd, 2010
I’m not now or will I ever be perfect, I have been fighting my own demons for so long. For years I wore a .357 magnum cartridge around my neck, a reminder that I could leave this world anytime I chose.
I would get out of bed and wonder why am I bothering, today will be the same as yesterday which will be the same as tomorrow. But then I decided to search for that perfect day, we have all had one at least and sometimes we have had many without even knowing it. I haven’t had one for a long time but I still remember what it felt like. The warmth of the sun shining on my face, a light breeze ruffling my hair everything appearing sharp and in focus. Being with that friend that you really don’t need to talk to because just being there is enough.
I can’t tell you what will help you, but I can listen if you ever want to talk.
Posted on 08:21AM on Nov 25th, 2010
Thanks for sharing your story and kindness!
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